Sunday, January 31, 2010

Day 31- You smell goooood!

{31:365} What's your scent?

Oh..... today's shot was an easy one. I had a little inspiration from a rather odd conversation I had the other night. I won't go into the convo cause its was......ODD!

However, this morning getting ready for the day I saw some of my perfume bottles out and thought I would snap a pic in honor of that convo I had! I find the humor in it, not sure someone else will....but ooooh well.

So here are my summer scents and 2 that I wear all year long. I wear the escada and escentual all year long because they are perfect for me. I am super duper picky with what I wear because my body chemistry is random, I can't just wearing anything. I have spent some serious amounts of money in my past buying perfumes that I end up hating on me after a few days, luckily my good friends ends up smelling GREAT in them and she ends up with nice haul of stuff.

Scents are interesting, they play games with our head. They will hold memories for you, good or bad, but that is what they do. I can wear Escentuals and I can smell it and think of a time in my life, just a few years ago and I smile. I guess thats why I like to change them up every year, new memories, new scents.

I am happy today! Today is the end of the month and that means I completed the entire month of my project!!!! woooo! 11 months to go.......eeeek.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Day 30- Pan Mexicano?

{30:365} ¿quieres frutas o pan dulce

What a day. Its almost like groundhogs day. I wake up, I am so tired, I go to the hospital and before you know it, its time to leave. I come home, I literally just plop down in my bed.

Today visiting my grandma, they had her bipap machine off her for a little bit and she knew I was in the room with her so she kept calling for me, she only wanted me giving her water and ice chips. I guess I am gentle with her? I don't really know, but whatever grandma wants we have always given her and its my pleasure to give her whatever she needs and wants.

At one point it was me, my mom and one of my aunts in there with her and my mom showed her the scarf I knitted and she inspected it and told me I did a good job. lol then she asked my mom...well how cold is it mom had on like 5 layers of clothes. not sure why but I laughed so hard. I had to share with them that me and grandma had insides jokes all the time and that was one of them at one point. My aunts didn't know that me and Grandma were pen pals, I told them.....yep, and I still have the letters!

Tonight we started talking about Mexican bread, which is really called pan dulce, I learned that on vacation in Mexico one year. Only Americans call it Mexican bread. I love it so much but I never get any. We don't really have those little markets around me. I think just one, not really sure. My aunts told that down the street there was a huge Mexican market, so after the hospital we cruised on over and got some bread. My mom treated since I have been driving her down every day. Its an hour ride for us to go down to see my grandma so I have been doing it so she won't have to. So I got 1 pink cookie, and 1 pineapple empinada! yum, I can't wait to have one in the morning!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Day 29 - exhausted and worn out

{29:365} worn out
I can't believe how tired I am. I guess its just mental exhaustion. Sitting at the hospital and dealing with all of that has made me so tired. I don't even know what day it is.

It was a good day in a way though. My Grandma woke up and was alert. In my opinion I got my wish. I wanted her to wake up so I could hug her and tell her I love you and to have her say it back, and that happened.

I am fully trying to prepare myself for her death but I know you can never be ready to let go of a loved one. I just don't want her in any pain and as a family that has been decided. Once they clear out one infection, she will be going home, as per her request. We will have hospice come in and help make her as comfortable as possible.

There is no chance of my Grandmother recovering and we have all accepted that, we don't want to but that is her reality. So, we will just continue to be there at her side.

She is a funny lady though.....I am so very blessed to have her in my life, and I totally know who I get some of my behaviors from!

the pic I took today is how I feel. tired and worn out. I don't have much time to think of other photos to take so I guess my pics will be boring for a few days, at least until I can get some good rest.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Day 28- always

{28:365} I will sit by her side until I can't anymore.

Just another day spent at the hospital. I had my husband take part of his day off and he was kind enough to do so, even though he had a hazmat meeting with Cal osha. We went to the hospital and got to sit with my Grandma for a bit. She responded to his voice, while squeezing my hand. My husband has sort of a loudish voice, she always has said "even though I can hardly hear, I can always hear George" lol. However it hurt me to see her try and struggle to respond, she has a bipap mask on and can't talk she moaned and tried to talk. I can't even begin to tell you how that feels to see that. :(

Oh my sweet little Grandma, how strong you are. Her tiny little body is trying so hard to fight this infection she has, she's trying to move, she is getting to much
co2 and that is causing her to be in this confused sleepy state.

My Grandfather came in and told her in Spanish that he was there and wouldn't leave, she's not alone. then he told her to open her eyes, and I nearly lost it, she tried to open them and mumbled again, and he told her "wider, me and TC are here" and she opened them all the way and looked at us but closed them right away. All I wanted to do was crawl onto that bed with her and hold her.

All I did today was text my cousin's and sit with my grandma, so this is the pic I have, man she would be pissed if she knew I took a pic of her swollen fingers. lol. Do you notice that her nails are painted. Always the lady. She had just had her nails and hair done at the salon at her rehabilitation center. Now I know where I get that from! God I love her.

I don't know how much I will get to see her tomorrow, I come from a very large family, we breed like crazy and since my Grandma was close to everyone, she is having so many visitors, but as long as I get to see her and she gets to hear that I am there with her, I will have kept my promise to her, that she would not be left alone in that place.

I am exhausted and in much need of sleep. good night.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Day 27- waiting

{27:365} the waiting game

What a awful day. Things were business as usual til I got a call from my mom that came up on the caller ID as my Aunt's number, My mom informed me she was at the hospital, that my grandma had been rushed over. Weird thing, is I woke with so much congestion that I had to have a breathing treatment and my grandma was on my mind, and then bam.

I was told that she still had the staph infection she got back in Sept during surgery from a horrible fall she had, she had to have pins put in her arm, she has since been in a rehabilitation facility to help, but its been slow moving, and she has gotten pneumonia twice and this is the third time. Its now causing problems with her heart, she is on a bipap machine that is giving her the assistance breathing.

Seeing her be so frail and in such a weakened state was hard for me. I am close to her, she is my heroine and role model. I have said it many time that I have been blessed to have such an amazing family and its because of her that my family is filled with love. She is the matriarch of this family. I can't imagine my life without her.

Its very touch and go at this point and we will know soon if she will be sent home with hospice to spend her last hours at home. I know my grandma and she would not want to be there like a vegetable. Its such a hard decision to make. Each and every one of us have sat with her. The Dr. said she can here us but she can't respond.

I took it so hard. I sat for some time but I had to go, I came home and let myself break down and cry. I know that she lived a full and wonderful life, I know that she has made peace with life and god, and I know she will be met by her sister and brothers but the selfish person in me wants her to stay here forever. I want my Grandma to wake up and laugh with me. I want to gossip with her. I want to give her a hug. I want her to hear her call me TC. I want to tell her that I love her. The reality is, I will probably not have that again.

I am sad, and hurting inside. good night.

( the above pic was taken while waiting for my turn to see her, I had to take the pic, she knows about my project and wouldn't want me to stop it, she is proud of everything I do)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Day 26- Around the world

{26:365} WD-40

There is this neat little group on flickr called Amy Spano's around the world Project. Basically you hold a sign up with something that was invented in your, city,and or state. So what has California brought to the world? tons of stuff. It was hard to think of what I should do. There is a deadline so I wanted to make sure I did it and I grabbed some wd-40, which was invented in San Diego, CA
I was going to do Popsicles, since they are my fave, but its freezing out...hence I still had my scarf on, lol. I had just got home and grabbed my cam and my sign and some wd-40.

Did you know that the pet rock was invented in Cal? lol so was White Zin Wine, as well as valley girl talk, and I really would be perfect to represent that cause well, I talk like a valley girl, or so I have been told. I think its cause I say words like....totally, bitchen, rad, for sure, like. ok, ok, I do sound like one but I am not from San Fernando...EEWW.

I look like a mega goober in my shot but I am one so whatevs! I added a bonus pic of me looking like a dork again. LOL

Go join the group and tell us what the your area has brought the world. link to group

Monday, January 25, 2010

Day 25 - Bob's big boy

{25:365} bank

This little bank is by far one of the best things I will ever own. I know I seem to have a trend of sentimental stuff here but that's just who I am. I love things that have meaning. I am not a superficial type gal. :) so back to the bank.

This little guy has sat on the top of my Grandmother's fridge for as long as I can remember. Its always held pennies in it. See, my Grandma loves playing penny poker, especially around Christmas time. Its usually her, 2 of my uncles, and my Grandpa that play. One time I was watching her play and she's a crack up, she has the poker lingo down. I actually heard her say "ok, down and dirty" I laughed so hard, and she calls the queens, Ladies.

Anyways, one day she told me I could have the bank and omg I was like hell yeah. First thing I did was text all my cousin's...saying, I am number 1, I got the bank. LOL. We all wanted it but yanno...her favorite got it.

I tried to clean him up but the bad part is part of his details started to rub off. I need to find some plastic cleaner that can get him nice and shiny.
I am not sure if any of you even know what Bob's big boy restaurant is, but it was a decent diner type place. I have a rather funny story about it. The little bank is a replica of the big statue that would stand outside of the restaurant. Well, my husband, his 3 brother and 2 of their friends decided they wanted to play a joke, and they stole the statue. My mother in law was actually totally ok with it, she thought it was funny, I guess when you have 4 sons that are always up to total boy things, nothing shocks you. She did make them return it but can you imagine an 8 foot Bob's big boy sitting in your front yard? hahah I tell you those guys were nuts back in the day.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Day 24- rings of the past

{24:365} silver rings

After watching tv shows and football I decided to start to clean up some of my jewelry, I started with some of my silver rings that I don't wear anymore but I like to make sure they stay shiny. I love baubles and such.

I came across my mickey head ring and it cracks me up when I see it. In 1994 at Disneyland my husband asked me to marry him, he says he wanted to make sure he snatched me asap...hmm. anyways, I wore that ring with pride. Its known I love nicer things but I am a very simple girl. I am more about meaning and sentiment, instead of price value....not gonna lie though, nothing wrong with having nice stuff too! lol I didn't know at the time but he had been saving for the official ring he got and then did ask me to officially marry him on New Years eve 1994.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Day 23 - Inspired

{23:365}  tie yourself to me

I found this guy's web site and wow, it was an instant artist type inspired crush. (not the kind of crush that is creepy lol).

As I read his Haiku's on love I just wanted to know where he felt that kind of love from, so I clicked his flickr and I saw his beautiful girlfriend, and just by the way he takes her photo you can just feel how much he loves her. Its pretty clear she is his muse.

His words have inspired a series of photos, but most will not be posted cause they will be for 1 man's eyes only, teehee.

Today's photo was inspired by this Haiku by Tyler Knott Gregson

"I will be your kite,
and you, you will be my string.
Tie yourself to me."

-Tyler Knott Gregson

( the above pics with me in it...were just out takes of me trying to get myself in the pic, yeah, I am in much need of a remote, haha oooh well)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Day 22- bottle caps

{22:365} the pieces will fall...

This game is hell. I swear. It similar to Jenga but with wooden disks. I have an unhealthy addiction for games, board games, video games, you name it, I am willing to play it. My husband and I have tons of boards games and have always played them. Its probably because we don't have kids that we've been big kids ourselves.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Day 21- in my hands

{21:365} holding memories in my hand.

I've already shared how much I love music, so you get that idea loud and clear. There are a couple of things that I have from concerts that I keep close to me, these two buttons/pins are some things I hold near and dear to me.

They were given to me from someone super special, and I will always hold them close to my heart.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Day 20 - knitting and rain

{20:365} 20 stitches

Its rained since Sunday night here in California. We need it but some areas just can't seem to handle it. Not much to do here since it would be silly to even step foot outside unless you are going to work or the store, other than that its sitting indoors.

Since that's all I am doing, I decided to start on this scarf. I met a lady who fell in love with one of my scarves and has asked me to make one for her. I've never been paid to make something for anyone so this should be interesting. I am always so nervous about any of my work, but I have to have confidence that since she liked my previous scarf, she will like the one I make for her.

eek wish me luck

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Day 19 - El Drinko Mexicana

{19:365} hecho en Mexico

yeah, lets just say, I can't speak Spanish very well. Here's the thing though.....I can understand it, I can read it but I can't speak it so well. I took it in College. Actually my mom can speak it but of course she speaks Spanglish and so do her sisters, but all of my cousin can't speak it. We can say the curse words and say things like "sit down and shut up" "shut the door" haha Give a hint what all of our mom's said to us growing up in Spanish.

I actually feel sort of robbed. I am of Spanish descent and was adopted in a Mexican family but I was raised in an upper class primarily Caucasian city. My mom never really spoke much Spanish to me, and she was never a cook so I didn't get that yummy home cooking. I would when we would visit family, which was often but I am kind of bummed that I didn't have more of that. Most people call me a coconut, cause I am brown on the out and white on the inside! lol If you heard my voice you might laugh. I sound very valley girl, or so I have been told. I figure at one point I will do another video for this project. Then you all can hear me say things like, totally! I was teased awhile back cause I said gnarly. I was raised near the beach.....what can I say, dudes!

What does any of this have to do with the pic I took today? lol nothing really, its just the drink I took a pic of is made in Mexico. I love the look of the cap and the colors of these drinks but I am guessing I won't like the taste, Mexicans can make great beer, yummy Tequila and food but other type drinks, I do NOT like.

The colors of Jarritos are beautiful, vibrant, much like the country of Mexico. I think in the summer time I would like to buy all the different flavors and snap a shot in the nice hot sun.

I think I am just babbling, I am feeling a little under the weather today. not sure if its allergies or I am getting another cold. Lets hope its just allergies.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Day 18- the rain has cometh


As the rest of the U.S gets snow, we get rain! lots and lots of rain. I love it. Rain is always needed here in the valley, plus its just beautiful. I love to listen to it.

My pup wanted to go out so I went with her and put on my Steve Madden rain boots. I got these several years ago, now they have such cute patterns. I will need to get a new pair. maybe at the end of winter when they go on sale, cause I really don't NEED new ones, I just want some.

I don't have a remote for my cam so its hard to do a self portrait of any kind but some days I can manage, was not one of those days though. I had the cam set up on books and the timer set and I tried my best. Whenever I get a remote I will revisit some of my previous shoots, but for now, this is as good as I could

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Day 17- the hawkeye

{17:365} fake vintage advert

I love vintage cameras so much. I dream of having a shelf filled with cool old cameras. I found a couple of good ones on ebay and right now they just sit next to my husband's humidor on a shelf but I would like to have a few on a shelf in my scrapbook/craft room.

I have really started to love all things vintage. I just can't believe how they use to make things back in the day. It was true craftsmanship, I think.

I knew today that I wanted to snap a pic of my little Brownie Hawkeye but honestly I see pics everyday on flickr that are just so amazing of this same type of camera. At this point they are in the category of cliche shots. I figured I will just snap and see what I come up with. As I loaded my pics up, they all just seemed like they were snaps for an advert. so why not make it look like that. I knew Kodak had a slogan, had to look it up and how cute is that "you push the button, we do the rest." I like that. Untrue now a days but I like it.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Day 16- up in the sky!

{16:365} sunset

I had to run over to the gas station and the store to pick up some medicine and when I got into my car I kind of noticed in a distance that it was a cool color but I didn't really want to run back in the house and upstairs to get my cam, cause what were the chances of it being a great sky. HA!

so as I got closer to the store, I nearly screamed, the sky was amazing. I pulled over on the road (which was busy) and I tried to get some picks, but they were all through the windshield but one. haha I was stoked that I remembered I had my little point & shoot in my purse and of course my cell phone.

I was rather happy that you can at least see how awesome that sky was. I was bummed though that I didn't have my xsi with me.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Day 15- notes

{15:365} blank

I have an obsession with notebooks and journals. Basically I love stationary and office supplies. The actual problem is, I don't always write in them, or I end up using them to make lists. I make lists of everything.

As you saw with yesterdays photo, I love music and I tend to make lists of play lists I make or songs/cds I want to download. I use to make lots of notes about band info.

I also make a to do list everyday. I am not sure why I do, other than its part of my ocd behavior. I have to see what I have to do for the day and mark it off as I do it.

I use to keep a daily journal until someone read it and didn't like what they saw. I felt violated, so I kind of don't like to keep my super private thoughts anywhere for people to see and possibly get hurt. I wish I did have somewhere to keep my thoughts though. I guess that is why I started to blog a couple of years ago, but LOL the entire world can see what I write.....not really private, eh?

I have killed my battery...AGAIN! lol I guess it dies once a week with the amount of pics I take right now. This weekend might be a challenge of taking pics, because I will be watching football both Sat and Sunday!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Day 14- Music

{14:365} Music is my religion

I find it strange when people don't like music. Is it possible to not enjoy music? I don't think there is anything else that can bring out so many emotions. You can really experience music...well, providing the band you are listening to can make that happen. Cause lets face it, some artists just can't give that to ya. I think a band that can sum up what I mean is sonic youth. You put on superstar or Theresa's sound world and you will feel that music.

I have loved music since I was a wee one. I had a very strict mother growing up but she let me listen to whatever I wanted. I think that was because she loved music so much that she understood the need to let me be my own person. I remember dancing with her around the house to all sorts of music from country, to r&b, to top 40 to even hardcore rock and roll. My mom's taste was all over the place. She for sure taught me to like what I want, and not be shy or embarrassed about my choices.

I may or may not fall into the music snob category. I just know I like what I like. I'm picky but since I was in dance for years growing up, I also like music I can get up and dance to, but I would have to say I fall into the indie and punk genre of music. I love the sound of bass and drums.

I have a few good friends that enjoy music as much as I do, its like we "get it" and we tend to giggle at those that just don't. There is one person that I can say is my musical soul mate, He's the one that gave the headphones and amp in the above pics. I can't imagine listening to music without a good set of headphones or ear buds. It really surprises me when I see people still using the earbuds their Ipods came with, its like yikes people. Honestly even if you got the cheap skull candy earbuds at Target for 16.00 you would be better off.

Here is just a quick list I put together, basically what I could come up with at the top of my head of bands that you will find n my Ipod:

Absent kid, The Adverts, Air Traffic, Alice Cooper, And you will know us by the trail of the dead, Andrew Bird, Arcade fire, Archers of Loaf, Architecture in Helsinki, Arctic Monkeys, The Automatic, B-52’s, baby shamble, Bad Religion, Band of Horses, Bat for lashes, Bauhaus, Be your own pet, The Beastie Boys, The Beatles, Beck, The Bird & The Bee, The Black Angels, The Black Keys, Black Kids, Black Lips, Black Mountain, BRMC, Blackmail, The Blakes, Bloc Party, Blonde Redhead, Blondie, Blood on the Wall, Blue foundation, Blur, Bob Dylan, The Bravery, Brian Setzer, The Buzzcocks, Bjork, Cadilac Tramps, CSS, Cake Carbon/ silicon, Cat Power, Charlotte Gainsbourg, The Check, The Chemical Brothers, CCR, The Clash, Coconut records, Cold war kids, The cramps, The Cribs, The Cure, The Dandy Warhols, David Bowie, De Novo Dahl, Dead Kennedys, Death cab for Cutie, Death from Above 1979, The decemberists, Deerhoof, Dinosaur Jr., Dirty Pretty thing, The Distillers, Drive by Truckers, Duran Duran, The Duke Spirit, Eazy-e, eels, The Faint, Feist, The Fiery Furnaces, Flight of the Conchords, The Foxboro hot tubs, The Fratellis, Garbage, Giant Drag, Georgie James, The GO! Team, Goldfrap, Gore Gore Girls, The Gossip, Grand national, Grand Ole Party, The Gutter Twins, Hadsome furs, Hard-fi PJ Harvey, The Helio sequence, The Hives, The Holloways, Horrorpops, Hot chip, IAMX, Iggy Pop, Ima Robot, Imogen heap, Infadels, Interpol, Iron & wine, Japan, Jets to Brazil, Johnny Cash, Janis Joplin, Joy Division, Justice, Kasabian, Kate Nash, The Kills, The Killers, Kimya Dawson, Kings of Leon, The Kooks, The Libetines, Louis XIV, MIA, Mando Diao, Marilyn Manson, Metric, Mgmt, Modern English, The Misfits, Muse, My Morning Jacket, The National, NIN, Nine Black Alps, Of Montreal, Oxford Collapse, The Pigeon Detectives, Pop Levi, Portishead, Portugal. The man, The Postal service, The Ranconteurs, Radiohead, The Ramones, The Raveonettes, Regina Spektor, Rilo Kiley, The Romantics, The Sex Pistols, She wants Revenge, Shout out louds, Silversun pickups, The Smiths, social distortion, Sonic Youth, Stiff little Fingers, The Strokes, Superchunk, Taken by cars, Tilly & the wall, The Thermals, The Ting Tings, Teagen and Sarah, TV on the radio, The Vibrators, The Vines, Violent Femmes, The Von Bondies The Whigs, White Rabbits, white stripes, Whole sky monitor, wolfmother The yeah yeah yeahs

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Day 13- Bake it up!

{13:365} baking some breadOh my Dayum! ok, I will just pat myself on the back with a few things I can do, cook! and bake! today I looked in the fridge and thought mother Hubbard had it better, but that doesn't stop me from cooking and baking a kick ass meal! I had all the items I would need to make popovers, so hell yeah, who wouldn't want fresh warm bread with dinner.

I actually first made this with Christmas dinner, it was so GOOD. I searched everywhere for a popover pan but nobody had one, then finally this speciality kitchen shop had it, eek the pan cost 31.00 but its a great amazing pan, I will get lots of use out of it, and my mom bought it for me as a little gift, the rule was I had to make popovers for her whenever she wanted though. lol I am totally ok with that.

Seriously people, if you want a simple but yummy bread go to this link and you will be amazed.

tonight's dinner: Roasted chicken, glazed baby carrots, spinach salad w/pine nuts and popovers. booya! that's right, I had literally nothing in my cupboards and fridge but don't underestimate my abilities.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Day 12- Sereni-tea

{12:365} Sereni-Tea

Nothing like a nice hot cuppa tea before bed. A contact on my flickr account mentioned that mint tea helped her acid reflux, so I figured I would give it a try. The mint is fab. Such a good taste.

I've always loved hot herbal teas, since I was young, I will never forget my mom making a cup of chamomile tea and we would read Peter Rabbit before bed.

So tonight I grabbed my tea kettle, which btw, I have such a cute kettle, I got it as a gift from my man a couple of years ago, its by Le Creuset. actually, I have two! lol, Somehow I ended up with two of them, I think we were suppose to return one of them, cause I still haven't used this one, oopsie. Either way, I love my kettle but I realized, I think I must have gotten rid of my cute tea pots I had. I guess that's what I get for cleaning and ditching so much stuff before we moved. :( I have come to notice that I am missing a lot of items.

I also noticed that all I really have boring mugs, I have a couple of favorites but I think I need to get some new mugs, I keep seeing ones I really want, I am thinking some blue and brown ones would be perfect for me. The mug I used tonight was still in its box, never used ( another oopies), its an infuser, and I love it! it was perfect for tonight, but I am sure it will work well with loose tea leaves.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Day 11- geek girl

{11:365} geek?
yikes, once again, I nearly forgot to take my pic. I was busy most of the day but I had in the back of my mind to take a pic of something computer related.

Today is 01.11.01 and of course you see binary code when you see that, you also see a palindrome! so today would be binary palindrome day. oh yes, I'm a nerd like that.

Since I don't have much to blog about regarding my pics, I can tell you the following little tidbits about me.

1. My first computer was a mac (I think it was a mac classic)
2. I think about numbers all the time (some days I think I could be rain man)
3. My elementary school was the first in my county to get computers.
4. I love taking apart computers
5. I use to be able to take one apart and put all back together again, we use to have contests at work.
5. I don't own a mac now, but I wouldn't mind owning one.
6. Hot Geek guys turn me on. (things change when you get older)

10 20 30 40 50 <---As I typed this, those numbers popped into my head. haha I told you, I'm a mini rain man

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Day 10- flashback


I spent a lot of my childhood with my great Aunt and Uncle. My mom lived the closest to her out of the entire family and since she was my mom's aunt, my Grandma's sister. They were elderly and she was legally blind and had a few health issues. We would do things like take them to the store, help fill out their medical paperwork, well my mom did those things. I was just a kid so for me, it was just going to spend time with them.

Every single memory I have as a kid pretty much involves them. They didn't have any money but were richer than most. I called him tata, he was old military and even had the hula girl tattoo on his forearm. I remember one time I was crying and I went outside and he asked why I was crying, who knows what I got in trouble for, but he told me "TC!! you stop your crying, do not grow up to be a cry baby, you be strong" lol, I took him to heart, I never cried much after that, I did let out a few silent tears at his funeral when they did the gun solute and they folded up the flag.

My Tia (aunt in Spanish) was amazing, like I said they didn't have money, like none but wow, I remember being so spoiled by her. I had my own set of coloring books and crayons in her room, I had my own shelf in her kitchen with treats my mom would NEVER let me have. she hung up my artwork I did at school and displayed it like it was a Picasso. Every holiday I got something, even if it was a little card, 5.00 or candy. I spent every Sunday there after church, so I either sat and watched baseball, soccer, or football with her. She new more stats than anyone I have ever met.

I knew that when I grew up and It would be my turn to be an Aunt, I would be just like her. I learned that you don't have to spend or give money or things of monetary value but your time and your attention to be a loving person. I am so grateful I learned that lesson early on in life and I would have to say, I'm a pretty damn good Auntie.

Sadly My Great Aunt passed away in 1998, she will forever live in my heart. This summer her daughter called me and asked if I wanted her sewing machine, I was honored and went down to pick it up. I haven't found its permanent spot in my house yet, and it needs some cleaning up, My mom and I are going to sand down the wood, and have it all cleaned up.

Today in my 365 flickr group, we had a mini challenge called flashback, so here is my 365 pic and my idea of flashback.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Day 9- texture and decay

come stay! {9:365}

When the weekend is here I love to get out and do anything, now that I am doing my 365, I will be sure to be out and about scouting out some neat stuff around the valley.

Today my little found treasure was an old motel, it still had its base walls but not much else, but wow it was just so unique. I loved the way the walls have been made into art through the natural causes of damage. there were areas that looked like they could be displayed in a gallery.

While taking my pics I had a little issue with my 50mm but again I think its just me. I did play around with the settings on the camera. I decided to buy a little moleskine to carry with me, for ideas, photo notes, etc. I also decided to bust out my old Pentax slr. I have a couple of GREAT lenses for it, now I just need some film and some batteries and I will be good to go. I was a pro on that thing, I haven't used it in so many years. I think at least 1 week of my 365 project will shot with film!
I'm really loving holding myself accountable to taking 1 photo a day.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Day 8- ME

TC {8:365}


I waited til the very last possible minute to snap a pic of myself, at just about 11pm, I grabbed my point and shoot and snapped a couple of selfies, I know I said I probably wouldn't take any but I was running out of time.

I posted the one decent one I got out of the point and shoot in case I couldn't get a decent one of my xsi, and sure enough ahha I couldn't get a good one off my xsi, then my battery died. So I posted the best shot I got before midnight! haha just under the time too.

anyways since I made the photo about me, I put some random facts about me on my photo on flickr.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Day 7- relaxation

relaxed {7:365}

Such a relaxing day for me today. After I went to see the surgeon, I was so happy but so tired. I think just hit me all the stress that I held inside.

My friends little girl came over to give me a little pressie, and she wanted to hang out with me, so we watched escape to witch mountain. After she left I put on some flannel PJ's and have been in them ever since. All I did today was really just read and relax. I think it was a perfect day.

ps: Thank you to everyone who left me comments here and emailed me via flickr. my results were BENIGN! there was no mammographic, or sonographic evidence of malignancy!!!! woo hoo!! I do have a tumor, but its not malignant! I can either live with it and check it once a month or I can have it removed and be left with a minor scar. I haven't decided what I will do, but I just wanted to let you all know that I really do appreciate all the kind words. :)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Day 6- the boob exam

squished and lubed {6:365}

A couple of days before Christmas I did my usual self breast exam and I felt a lump. It had been hurting off and on, that's kind of why I did check out if there was anything there. I however have been giving myself the once over about once a month.

I of course called the Dr. and they made an appointment but told me to watch it cause women can get them around their period, and I had just had mine, however it didn't go away, I went in and sure enough its a lump.....the good thing, is it did seem to shrink a little. The pain is still there though, just not often. So they made an appointment today to get my very first mammogram an ultrasound on my left boob.

I will be honest, I have been nervous as all can be, I have HUGE boobs and I have heard that it hurts. HA! It didn't hurt at all. She had to get several shots of it too, cause my bewbies are so big! lol I then had to get the ultrasound on it as well, but that has now left me a little tender but nothing bad. I was hoping it was a cyst. However it is not, it is a tumor but that doesn't mean its life threatening. I find out tomorrow, I meet with the surgeon to discuss the results. I am thinking good positive thoughts, and like the lady said.......if its bad, we have caught it in time.

It made me happy cause they asked if the Dr. found it, I said nope, I did then the Dr. confirmed. She said they never get anyone that has found one on their own, its always the Dr. So ladies!!! check your breasts, or have your man do it ;)

Anyways....I don't feel as bad as I did yesterday. I think I am going to be ok. They don't allow you to take your stuff in with you, they actually give you a locker to lock your stuff up in, so this was all I could get, and that was with my cellphone. You get the basic idea of my morning.

btw....the Ultrasound tech said I should come home and take a pic of my boobs for my 365, I told, this goes on the net, I'm thinking NO! she laughed.

hmm part of the pic is cut off, but you get the idea and you can always click the pic and it sends you to my flickr.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

day 5- scent

cigars {5:365}

Today I was cleaning and dusting, I stopped at the humidor and opened it up, cause I love to smell the inside. It actually brings back great memories.

Growing up, I met one of my dearest friends when we were 3 years old and ever since I can remember her dad has smoked cigars. he was the first man I ever knew with a goatee. he had it before it was the norm to have one. Even when I see him now, he's got a cigar in his mouth, and jazz playing in the background.

Granted I am not a huge fan of the smell of them while they are being smoked, but they still give me a nice childhood memory.

I have a Dr. appointment tomorrow and I am a little nervous about it, so I did a LOT of cleaning today to get my mind off things. I almost didn't take a pic cause I was so busy trying to keep my mind off things.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Day 4 - fog

aint no sunshine {4:365}

Nothing but fog all day here in the valley. Don't get me wrong, I do like it. There is nothing like it. We got fog in Orange county since we were on the coast but nothing like the tule fog that I have experienced in the last 5 years. It gets so bad here, our schools have a fog schedule, which means bus delays or school canceled....crazy, eh? fog days! ha. I want to have a snow day.

My mom wanted to go to the store I hate the most I HATE and LOATHE this store, the store? WALMART!! and don't get offended that I don't like it. For some reason people like to defend the store or the fact they shop there to me. I don't care if anyone shops there. I am highly ocd and I can't handle mess and clutter and the few times I have been in any walmart I have nearly killed people. Its just too much for me. BUT....BIG BUT, I went to our super walmart today and I will say.....I did not want to kill anyone. yay me, right? It was clean, like holy crapples, a clean Walmart, I didn't know it could happen.

What also helped was the fact that my mom decided to get me more yarn, I think she's digging the fact that I am a little knitter now. Oh and I got some cuties, do you know what they are? Its a clementine grown here in California!!! Actually they are grown right here in the Central Valley. They are yum. I know Costco has them so next time you are out and you see a box that says CUTIES, grab them, and think of me :) They were my only sunshine today, and what a yummy sunshine it was.

pst......the stickers on them made me giggle: Happy Juicy Days! LOL come on, thats totally funny

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Day 3- knitter

yarn- {3:365}

What a semi chill day. Got up early cleaned the house and did what household chores needed to be done. Then I sat down to watch my team play their last game of the regular season. That's right folks, I am a hardcore football fan, and, yes, my team is the 49ers. I have been a fan since I was a wee one. I get teased about it by just about everyone I know, but its ok! The team has had a rough few years now but with the a better coach they have improved and I suspect next season they will be even better, so watch out!! oh and they won! but then again they were playing the Rams....if they didn't win it would just be a sad day.

woah back to the subject at hand...

I decided to make a gift for someone that has been pretty special to me and here it is. I learned how to knit a few years ago and only made 2 scarves, well I have since learned how to loom knit and am starting to learn to crochet. Loom knitting is actually pretty cool, and easy! My main goal for 2010 is to be more creative, well whats more creative than making something with my own two hands?