Day 59 digital vinyl

Aren't these cute? who doesn't love vinyl. I got these little discs just because they look like records....haha yes, I am that geeky!

Day 58- bloom

Spring makes everyone happy, right? Things start to bloom, the colors are bright, yet soft!

I had to take pics of the Daffodils today. They are my 2nd favorite flower.


ps: I know I haven't been around much but I have my pics ready to load up and my blogs in edit mode, I will get to them this week. I know, I suck. haha Life got in the way of me being on top of internet things.

Day 57

I really like the look of everything the day after it rains. Spring is showing up big time. I was driving and slowed down to take this pic with my little point and shoot. lol

These trees are all over the entire valley, not sure if they are almond trees. I will have to find that out.

Day 56 - recipes

trying to get back in the grove of things. I looked through a few cookbooks for ideas for using all those lemons. I have to say those lemons are so juicy! sorry that my pics and blog is so blah, I will get back into things soon :)

Day 55- lemon this and lemon that

love my Grandpa, I feel so bad that he will be there alone in that house without the woman that had been at his side for so many years. :(

Yesterday before we left he gave me some lemons....and by some, I mean a shit ton. he's so cute, I asked if I could pick a few off his tree, and he got them for me and gave me 4 very large bags full. I have lemons coming out of my ears! so sweet though.

I have been using them like crazy and I am going to have to give some to my sister in law!

I am so jealous of my grandpa, he has a green thumb, his backyard is perfect and he keeps it all up himself. he has huge trees, the lemon tree isn't at all dinky its HUGE! and he has an orange tree too. I love that backyard, reminds me of the summers when I would come up for visits.

Day 54- mint?

I didn't really want to take a picture today, for obvious reasons but I thought I would snap one of these mints, I was like the mint lady at the funeral. I opened my ice breakers and had one and then all of a sudden I had several hands asking for one! haha

I guess we all had stale breath? I had some tic tacs and started giving those out instead

Day 53- Rosary

I didn't know what I was going to take a picture of this day. Honestly, I haven't really been in the mind set to take a pics but I did snap the little pamphlet they pass out at the rosary/viewing. btw, she picked that one out. My grandparents had everything picked out, it made the arrangements very easy.

I wasn't sure how I was going to handle the viewing/rosary. Seeing dead loved ones has never really upset me ever. I know its just the shell they once were. She is gone, but its my grandma, the woman I loved with all of my heart and soul. I took a few deep breathes and walked in hand in hand with my mom. I looked at her in the casket and it didn't effect me as I thought it would. I loved seeing all the flowers that had been sent, she would have laughed at that. My grandma has a great sense of humor.

It was standing room only there at the mortuary chapel. My grandmother loved each and every person that was there. I watched so many come in and hug each of us and give their condolences. I did get a little emotional when they played the video collage of photos of her life, and her family, some pics made us cry, laugh and go aaww. One of my cousins had a hard time and broke down, the poor thing. Like I said, we were all close to her. she loved everyone in her life.

There is a reason My grandmother was my hero. I looked up to her for so many reasons. The picture above is one of my favorites out of the video. My grandparents.

Day 52- she loved purple

Its getting closer to the day of the viewing and her funeral. I am not ready for it. I have been doing good at dealing with it all though. I have had some great friends and of course I have such a wonderful family. I am surrounded by love.

The photo of the scarf is a gift I just started for my cousin. Its purple because, well she would look great in the color and because it was Grandma's favorite color, that and lavender. For her funeral we will all be in different shades of purple.

My cousin has a birthday coming up, on Weds. and right now is not only a hard time because she lost our grandma, but she lost two this last week. The day of her Dad's mother's funeral, our Grandma died. Talk about awful. My grandma was close to my cousin's other grandma, and I can't imagine the pain they are going through. My heart goes out to their family.

My last conversation with my grandmother was regarding the knitting I had been doing, and the crocheting I had been learning, she was proud of me, as she was with everything I did. She loved my work and believe it or not, even though she was nearly on her death bed she investigated my scarf and gave it the thumbs up, she told me to continue to use the talents I had. and I will.

Day 51- little pirate

I don't know where I got this cute little guy, I know someone gave him to me, but oopsie, I don't know who. lol

Anyways, I think he is super cute and he reminds me of the little sack people in the video game, Little Big Planet. Everytime I see him, I sing the yo ho ho song, and yeah...I am so in the need of some rum. lol

Sorry for the boring post, I don't have much to say. Just dealing with things. Will be back to normal soon.

Day 50- breakfast

All my posts have been sitting in edit mode, waiting for me to upload my pics to flickr.

I have not been in the mood to care or worry about taking any pics. With all the family stuff going on, my focuss has been with that. I hope to get back in the grove of things soon.

so for now, this pic was taken after I made breakfast. nothing special. I was really to sad to eat anyways. my tummy has been a wreck since she passsed away.

Day 49- .......

I was wanting some good yummy food, I picked Chinese, I am too upset, I just ended up getting sick after, but I got a nice shot of the fortune cookie. :_

The day finally came. I thought I would be prepared for it, but I am not. I got the call letting me know, my grandmother passed away. I honestly just froze. It has been very hard for me for the last several hours. I want to cry my eyes out but the tears don't come, there is sadness and so much pain. I have questioned everything. Was I good grandchild? did she know that I loved her?, did I do all the right things? Then I become selfish and sad because I know, I will never hear her voice, I will never hear her call me TC. we will never laugh together, She's gone.

I know she is at peace and I know she left when she was ready and I know in time I will heal. I know life will go on, but today, I am just trying to be ok. I have great friends and family. My very good friend is the only one I am taking calls from. She knows what I need. I don't want to sit and cry about it to everyone. I want to have my mind off things. I want to be sad when I am alone and I want to be happy when I am with others.

Monday is her viewing and the rosary, Tues is her funeral. I can't believe she is gone. The woman who showed me what unconditional love is, the woman who let me know I belonged to this family...is gone. I hurt and can't think straight, so I am off to go and do something mindless, like watch tv.

Day 48- giving of yourself

Today was my day to volunteer for Habitat for Humanity. Its an organization I have always wanted to do things with, but had never done it, til now. When the opportunity came up, I knew I had to do it.

I firmly believe in giving yourself to help others. I don't know where it comes from, I just know that since I was a little girl, I knew my calling in life was to help those in need. I sometimes feel that I am not answering that calling like I should be.

I know at one point in my life I plan on going to another country and helping. Its not something I can do at this time, but I know I will not be at peace with myself until I do.

I believe that we should take care of our own before we take care of others. I think helping out in your own community is very important. I grew up in a very affluent city and county and I did not have the struggles others have. by all means, I was not at all born with a silver spoon in my mouth. I was poor compared to most of my friends, but I was NOT poor. I didn't know what poor was until I visited Mexico for the first time at age 5. It was then when I knew I had to help others in any way I can. For me its not financially possible for me to give money at this time, but I am very capable of giving my time and talents.

Recently I found it disgusting and disturbing with some facebook posts when Haiti was hit with the earthquake. I couldn't believe that there were people saying we shouldn't help them, that what about our own country. I, of course don't sit and keep my mouth shut and my response was, do you even help your own? if you don't then please shut the fuck up. Like I said, I think we need to help our own first, but there are humans that are out there that need help too. To turn your back or close your eyes on any human suffering is in my opinion showing what kind of person you are, and I hope to those, you never experience suffering.

Since I now live in a very different part of my state, I see kid in need every day. I work with children that don't have heat, new clothes, school supplies. I live where we have migrant farm workers. Who came here to make a better life and are trying to give that to their children. I have dedicated many hours to help my city and the people living in it. I hope that I have made a difference in this world.

Ok, getting off my soapbox now. :) but before I do.....if at all you feel the desire or have thought it would be nice to "one day" help out in some way, don't just think about it. do it. helping can be done in many ways. be giving, trust me when I say....its very rewarding.

ok really off my soapbox NOW! hahaha

Day 47- yin yang heart

I made these cookies for my someone special. As soon as I saw them in my cookbook I knew I had to make them. They aren't just a cookie, they are a heart, half white, half black, yin and yang. He has my heart and I have his. he is my other half. he makes me whole.

I found this poem that is just beautiful, and so true.

An eternity between meetings,

And an instant togetherness.

Periods of no touch,
With a chain of thoughts about your closeness and dearness,

Pining for your warmth and tenderness,

Yearning for those calling arms and luscious lips.

The quintessential, whole life;

Soul and body fuse in unison,

With no alpha or omega,

Where everything is unfathomable and clear.

My half thirts for your half,

Yang awaits Yin,

To combine, Unity

- Kartz (poem found online)

Day 46 poetry and games

Today is a Holiday so there is no school and a lot of businesses are closed......so what do you when you have an entire day to do what you want? well for me...



I got up early, worked out

cleaned the kitchen/house

then head over and play some games and have a couple of glasses of wine



This game is rather fun. Its called magnetic poetry. you get subject cards and try and make a poem using random words. I remember when this first came out, YEARS ago. We had a small set on our fridge and when people would come over they would make different little sentences.

Day 45 out in the country

I didn't feel like doing a love theme for today. I am all loved out! lol Had a wonderful day.

On a drive today I had to take pics of the cows and bulls I saw, they are just so cute. I get excited every time I see them. I didn't grow up near stuff like this so when I see it, I get so excited and squeal just a little too loud......I scared the cows and pissed them off too. :)

Day 44 icy love

I bought a little heart ice tray a year ago and I love making excuses to make them. I love heart shape anything.

Day 43 - the way to his heart....

ok, I am feeling much better, now I just need to get back into the grove of seeing things through my camera. I have just been in a bleh mood for a few days but I do feel SOOOO much better. Ah being a woman can just suck about once a month ;)

Anyways.... with Valentines day being Sunday, I wanted to pick a few things to bake for my special Valentine. I have a couple of things in mind, I hope he likes it. The way to a man's heart is through his stomach, right? hahaha well, I already have his heart, but I think he deserves a little treat from me!

I have so many cookbooks its unreal. For awhile it was an addiction, buying them. I finally had to stop because I don't like a lot of clutter in my home and with as many regular books I have and then added all the cookbooks, it would be too much.

ooh such an exciting time, the Winter games start today!! I am super jealous of my good friend who lives in Vancouver! she is right there in the heart of it all! man, I know that feeling. I will never forget when the 84 games came to LA. I remember everything about them. such an awesome thing, I am so glad its something we as a world still do.

Day 42 - drink time

still feeling not so into things but getting better, just having a slump and some personal issues. it will be a-ok in a couple of days. I know it will. lol just got to get to the end of the week!

in much need of a drink! I love my little cocktail sticks. they are glass and super fragile. one got broke as I was pulling them out. :( I have had them forever and with all the parties I have had not one has broke, I take them out for a pic and one breaks! hahaha ah, oh well. they are still cute. I need more!

Day 41- case of the blahs

I am not feeling anything this week. By that I mean.....I am just into much. I am in a funk. I hate that, I know I will be over it in a couple of days but for now, I am not into this project.

Day 40- Cliches are fun!

In one of the 365 groups we are doing cliche shots. There are so many! Even if they are cliche, I tend to like them anyways. lol

I figured I would do a converse shot today......what would a cliche shot be without a pair of converse!?

Growing up and in my 20's I didn't wear too many flats or tennis shoes, I mean sure, I wore some here and there but I spent the majority of time in heels or boots. I noticed though as I get older I get more and more casual. lol I went through a phase of wearing vans, those are always near and dear to my heart, (got my first pair when I was in Kindergarten) and of course...converse!! you aren't human if you don't own a pair. lol

Anyways....that is my cliche shot.

Day 39- Love Candy

One of my favorite Candies around Valentines day are the conversation hearts, not cause they taste good really but just cause they are so cute and I love the little sayings on them. I however don't like the ones that are really hard. I always forget what brand that has the softer ones, I think its brachs haha.

I found some rad ones a couple of weeks ago, they were Spanish sayings.

so I will admit, I am guilty of lining them up to make sentences. :)

Day 38 - Colorful

Last night I was feeling so tired and needed some serious attention of the beauty kind. I decided to go through my beauty stash. I clearly have an addiction to all beauty products. I focused on my makeup. I have SO much, yet I want more all the time. I see new shades and want them! The funny thing is, I am not a person that wears a ton of makeup. I actually don't wear much at all unless going out. I think I love makeup so much cause of how it can transform the way you look.

My favorite makeup artist was Kevyn Aucoin, I fell in love with his book, Making faces he had the ability to transform one celebrity to another just with makeup and hair. I am a little bummed because I got rid of so many books, I *think* that is one that didn't make it in the move, like so much else that somehow didn't make it. I have learned my lesson about being highly ocd....I go through these ocd fits and start getting rid of stuff. I give it away or donate it. I need to chill out when I go through those fits. lol

Well, like I said, I am very much into makeup. I use to be a MAC only girl but about 10 years ago I discovered Bare Escentuals and I love them just as much as MAC, here is a small part of my eyeshadow collection by Bare Minerals. You think I obsess much? LOL!

Now for the not so girly part of me, I am off to go watch the SuperBowl. To me its almost a Holiday! I am going to be cheering on the Saints! I can't cheer on the Colts, my ex played for them! kidding of course, but that is what I tell him why I can't cheer them on.

Day 37- watching raindrops

I am in a somber mood but much better than I was last night. My grandmother was given her last rites and she told my Grandpa she is ready to go, and she is going to die. I know that its coming, and I am trying to stay strong but I just couldn't. Last night was just too much for me to take in. I honestly can't imagine my life without her in it. I have decided not to go see her anymore. She is hooked up to everything and she is slowly dying, they have made her comfortable. I don't want the last image burned in my head to be her looking like that. My last image of her, is me and my cousin both hugging her, holding her, telling her we love her, and her telling us she loves us.

I tend not to let others comfort me, because I don't know how to let that in. I don't always know how to let go and just let someone hold me up. I want it, I want that so bad, but I have never known how to ask for it. I end up pushing everyone away from me and dealing with it alone. I make sure I am there for others. I am very capable of being comfort for my loved ones, I just don't know how to lean on them.

Last night all I wanted was the one I love to hold me and just make it all better, I know that its impossible. he can't make it all better. I ended up pushing him away from me and becoming more of a pain in the ass than I already am. He didn't let me push him. I opened up as best as I could. I told him what I needed and he gave me that, to the best of his ability.

Today its been raining all day. Its a very slow day. I looked out the window and saw raindrops and birds flying by. I grabbed my camera and of course the pup tried to get up against it too, she wanted the birds, now I have a window full of nose prints and dog hair, ugh!

These pictures and song are dedicated to the one I love. Thank you baby, for loving me the way you do.

Day 36- your're toxic

As you know I like music....NO, I am not a fan of Brit, I actually think she is an awful singer. I think she is a great little dancer and her costumes have always been decent. I however will get a tune of hers stuck in my head sometimes. Toxic is kind of an inside joke with some of my friends regarding men that are not good for us.

I have been wanting to do a mask type picture and this is what I came up with.

Day 35- Just say, I love you

I knew I wanted to use this vintage card in my 365, its dated 1936 on the back. When my husband's grandmother died, each one of the grand kids got a bible, in her bibles she kept all sorts of things, the one my husband got, had a pic of us in it, and a few other items, Also was this Valentines card, it's to her husband(then boyfriend). I never knew his Grandfather, he passed away before I came into the family. I do know from photos, and letters they loved each other so much, you don't see that kind of love anymore.

Like I said before, I love Valentines day. I think the more romantic, the better.

Day 34- overgrown

Today I was inspired by The black keys.


Guess who gets to be the Gardener this month? yep, me! How did I get stuck with that job? Is it cause I am Hispanic? pfft....lame. I have never mowed a lawn before in my life, I have done yard work as a kid with my parents in our backyard but never mowed the lawn.

I am off to pick up dog crap, and mow the lawn, don't be jealous! ( did I mention, I am allergic to grass? hahahaha, It will be fine, its just funny that I have to mow the lawn, fml)

I Did all the things you asked me to
I thought it was the perfect day
'til she just opened up to say

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
Things ain't like they used to be

I headed out to Lester Hill
But that just made me weaker still
She's got the kind of love I need
The kind that's never good on me

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
That things ain't like they used to be

Walked into the battle blind
It happens almost all the time
The yard is kinda overgrown
And all those happy times are gone

But it doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
That things ain't like they used to be

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
Things ain't like they used to be

Day 33- sweets

I love the month of February! I really do. Its a short month and its filled with love. I guess that is why I had decided to get married in Feb. yep.....15 years ago this Friday I got married, well...I got hitched at the hitching post, no for real.... I did. lol

Anyways, I really love Valentines day. I always have, even if I have been single on the holiday. I think its such a fun little silly holiday. I like th expressions of love. When it comes to the V-day I like more thoughtful type gifts. sure, don't get me wrong if I get a pretty bauble, I am one happy girl, but I dunno, I like cute stuff, something that says I thought about YOU! It could be as simple as making me dinner, getting me a cool movie I love.

I am girly but I do NOT really like the color pink. I think its cause I had everything pink in my room growing up that I just got over it. I only like it around Feb. haha silly, right?

I think I am a romantic at heart. I have this absolutely adorable vintage Valentines day card that was given to my husband's grandma by his grandfather when they were just little kids. I think I will try and take a shot of that this month. it melts my heart when I see it.

Day 32- buds

Today felt like spring weather out. I figured it was time for me and the pup to get out and go for a walk. I didn't want to wear my headphones so I grabbed these. They are ok, decent for the 10.00 I paid for them! Actually they are way better than the generic ipod ear buds. those hurt and sound meh.

I decided to make an attempt at a macro-ish type pic. I got some magnifiers for Christmas and this is what I got. :)

oh and the song is what I was listening to. Band of Skulls is such an awesome band. They are touring with BRMC...if they are coming near you....GO TO THAT SHOW you will not regret it.