Day 38 - Colorful

Last night I was feeling so tired and needed some serious attention of the beauty kind. I decided to go through my beauty stash. I clearly have an addiction to all beauty products. I focused on my makeup. I have SO much, yet I want more all the time. I see new shades and want them! The funny thing is, I am not a person that wears a ton of makeup. I actually don't wear much at all unless going out. I think I love makeup so much cause of how it can transform the way you look.

My favorite makeup artist was Kevyn Aucoin, I fell in love with his book, Making faces he had the ability to transform one celebrity to another just with makeup and hair. I am a little bummed because I got rid of so many books, I *think* that is one that didn't make it in the move, like so much else that somehow didn't make it. I have learned my lesson about being highly ocd....I go through these ocd fits and start getting rid of stuff. I give it away or donate it. I need to chill out when I go through those fits. lol

Well, like I said, I am very much into makeup. I use to be a MAC only girl but about 10 years ago I discovered Bare Escentuals and I love them just as much as MAC, here is a small part of my eyeshadow collection by Bare Minerals. You think I obsess much? LOL!

Now for the not so girly part of me, I am off to go watch the SuperBowl. To me its almost a Holiday! I am going to be cheering on the Saints! I can't cheer on the Colts, my ex played for them! kidding of course, but that is what I tell him why I can't cheer them on.

Day 37- watching raindrops

I am in a somber mood but much better than I was last night. My grandmother was given her last rites and she told my Grandpa she is ready to go, and she is going to die. I know that its coming, and I am trying to stay strong but I just couldn't. Last night was just too much for me to take in. I honestly can't imagine my life without her in it. I have decided not to go see her anymore. She is hooked up to everything and she is slowly dying, they have made her comfortable. I don't want the last image burned in my head to be her looking like that. My last image of her, is me and my cousin both hugging her, holding her, telling her we love her, and her telling us she loves us.

I tend not to let others comfort me, because I don't know how to let that in. I don't always know how to let go and just let someone hold me up. I want it, I want that so bad, but I have never known how to ask for it. I end up pushing everyone away from me and dealing with it alone. I make sure I am there for others. I am very capable of being comfort for my loved ones, I just don't know how to lean on them.

Last night all I wanted was the one I love to hold me and just make it all better, I know that its impossible. he can't make it all better. I ended up pushing him away from me and becoming more of a pain in the ass than I already am. He didn't let me push him. I opened up as best as I could. I told him what I needed and he gave me that, to the best of his ability.

Today its been raining all day. Its a very slow day. I looked out the window and saw raindrops and birds flying by. I grabbed my camera and of course the pup tried to get up against it too, she wanted the birds, now I have a window full of nose prints and dog hair, ugh!

These pictures and song are dedicated to the one I love. Thank you baby, for loving me the way you do.

Day 36- your're toxic

As you know I like music....NO, I am not a fan of Brit, I actually think she is an awful singer. I think she is a great little dancer and her costumes have always been decent. I however will get a tune of hers stuck in my head sometimes. Toxic is kind of an inside joke with some of my friends regarding men that are not good for us.

I have been wanting to do a mask type picture and this is what I came up with.

Day 35- Just say, I love you

I knew I wanted to use this vintage card in my 365, its dated 1936 on the back. When my husband's grandmother died, each one of the grand kids got a bible, in her bibles she kept all sorts of things, the one my husband got, had a pic of us in it, and a few other items, Also was this Valentines card, it's to her husband(then boyfriend). I never knew his Grandfather, he passed away before I came into the family. I do know from photos, and letters they loved each other so much, you don't see that kind of love anymore.

Like I said before, I love Valentines day. I think the more romantic, the better.

Day 34- overgrown

Today I was inspired by The black keys.


Guess who gets to be the Gardener this month? yep, me! How did I get stuck with that job? Is it cause I am Hispanic? pfft....lame. I have never mowed a lawn before in my life, I have done yard work as a kid with my parents in our backyard but never mowed the lawn.

I am off to pick up dog crap, and mow the lawn, don't be jealous! ( did I mention, I am allergic to grass? hahahaha, It will be fine, its just funny that I have to mow the lawn, fml)

I Did all the things you asked me to
I thought it was the perfect day
'til she just opened up to say

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
Things ain't like they used to be

I headed out to Lester Hill
But that just made me weaker still
She's got the kind of love I need
The kind that's never good on me

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
That things ain't like they used to be

Walked into the battle blind
It happens almost all the time
The yard is kinda overgrown
And all those happy times are gone

But it doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
That things ain't like they used to be

It doesn't mean a thing to me
It doesn't mean a thing to me
And it's about time you see
Things ain't like they used to be

Day 33- sweets

I love the month of February! I really do. Its a short month and its filled with love. I guess that is why I had decided to get married in Feb. yep.....15 years ago this Friday I got married, well...I got hitched at the hitching post, no for real.... I did. lol

Anyways, I really love Valentines day. I always have, even if I have been single on the holiday. I think its such a fun little silly holiday. I like th expressions of love. When it comes to the V-day I like more thoughtful type gifts. sure, don't get me wrong if I get a pretty bauble, I am one happy girl, but I dunno, I like cute stuff, something that says I thought about YOU! It could be as simple as making me dinner, getting me a cool movie I love.

I am girly but I do NOT really like the color pink. I think its cause I had everything pink in my room growing up that I just got over it. I only like it around Feb. haha silly, right?

I think I am a romantic at heart. I have this absolutely adorable vintage Valentines day card that was given to my husband's grandma by his grandfather when they were just little kids. I think I will try and take a shot of that this month. it melts my heart when I see it.

Day 32- buds

Today felt like spring weather out. I figured it was time for me and the pup to get out and go for a walk. I didn't want to wear my headphones so I grabbed these. They are ok, decent for the 10.00 I paid for them! Actually they are way better than the generic ipod ear buds. those hurt and sound meh.

I decided to make an attempt at a macro-ish type pic. I got some magnifiers for Christmas and this is what I got. :)

oh and the song is what I was listening to. Band of Skulls is such an awesome band. They are touring with BRMC...if they are coming near you....GO TO THAT SHOW you will not regret it.